Faith over Fear

Fear.  Anxiety.  Worry.

These are some words I am very familiar with.  Fear in the unknown.  Anxiety about every little detail of life.  Worry that I’m not doing things right, and then anxiety again when I make a mistake.

Stepping out into something new creates a great amount of fear in my heart.  I worry about what people will think, every small thing I say and do, and the people pleaser in me twists in my stomach.

In joining a network marketing business I am being asked to step out of my comfort zone.  Which you can imagine is quite uncomfortable!  I have to be okay with talking to people and sharing with them why I’m so excited about this new adventure, and then being turned way.  I have to learn from mistakes that I make starting this as a brand new consultant and not obsess while I’m trying to go to sleep each night.  If I didn’t have God in my life, there would be no hope of sleep.

This morning I was checking through my emails while drinking my morning coffee.  And by check through, I mean I read the one and only email in my box this morning. It was a message from my amazing Dad.

My dad is one of those people that you cannot help but love.  He is kind-hearted, thoughtful, giving, a servant leader, and truly trusts God with it all.  He has been sharing the daily devotionals from Our Daily Bread through email with all of his kids (3 of us) each day.  Sometimes I read them.  Sometimes I open the email but don’t actually read the whole thing.  This morning I read it and I think God knew that I needed these words today.

“Imagine what it would be like to be released from your greatest anxiety and to run free.  It can happen!” – David McCasland

“I run in the path of Your commands, for You have set my heart free” Psalm 119:32

Starting something new is stressful.  Even when you feel that this is where God is leading you.  I do believe that God has orchestrated perfectly the introduction of Arbonne into my life at exactly the right time.  But I’m also stressed and anxious.   How wonderful is it then that I can rely on God’s strength and wisdom and knowledge when my own is lacking.  I can follow his path, do my very best every day, and rest in the fact that he has brought me here and will be by my side every step of the way.  My greatest anxiety is everything.  And God has set my heart free so that I may wake up each day refreshed and my cup filled.  I am able to put myself in uncomfortable places because I have faith that God is there with me and will provide guidance and security.  He has given me the ability to make the choice of faith over fear.  Not saying there won’t be moments of fear, anxiety, worry.  But that he will be there in the moments and will bring me through.


A New Adventure

I have always known that I wanted to be a stay at home mom, even before I had kids, even while I was still a kid!  So when my son came along and I was not able to stay at home with him during his first year, my heart was broken.  I cried every day that I dropped him off at daycare and PRAYED that he would not reach a milestone until I was there to witness it.  While I had previously LOVED my job as a teacher and put my heart and soul into it, this year it seemed that I couldn’t focus and my passion for the classroom was quickly fading.

So, after a whole lot of praying, discussing, calculating, budgeting, tears, and sleepless nights (baby boy contributed to some of that, bless his heart), my husband and I agreed that I would not be returning to work in the fall.  I held onto that decision for the rest of the school year, KNOWING that life would absolutely be 100% better once the summer came and I got to stay home with baby full time.

And then summer came.  And so did my last paycheck.  And life was not 100% better.  With the new season came new stresses, like “we need groceries… how do we pay for them?”  or “the dog is sick and the vet bill is $400… there goes vacation”.  I had thought I was prepared for this change in finances and I very quickly learned just how stressful it can be.  I was doing a few entrepreneur jobs, but money just wasn’t coming in when it was needed and things were getting tight.  (We all needed hair cuts so to save money I cut my husband’s, my son’s, and MY OWN hair!  … we will now somehow make it work for at least the adults in the house to get professional haircuts :/).

Then on one fateful morning I got a facebook message from a friend from college telling me about Arbonne.  She told me about how she is able to stay at home with her babies and still make a real income.  And she told me about the amazing products and how they have really made a difference in her own life.

I wasn’t sold right away.  I had a lot of questions, which she and her sister patiently answer for me.  My biggest hesitation was that I definitely don’t want to become one of “those people”.  Ya know, those people who only want to be friends with you because they have a product to sell.  Those people who put on the fake enthusiasm to sell products that are over priced and not quality.  Those people who call you constantly and won’t take no for an answer.  I definitely do not want to be one of those people.

After asking all of my questions and realizing that this company really does offer an amazing opportunity and does not ask me (at all!!) to become one of “those people”, I really seriously began considering it.  It took a few days (again with praying, discussing, sleepless nights), but I decided to take the plunge and I am so glad that I did!

Arbonne has given me the opportunity to stay home with my son, earn a real income, and put my family before my work.  I get to work with a TEAM of AMAZING people, which is especially amazing because I am not always great at self motivation.  My friends and family are supportive of my business and have allowed me to practice phone calls and parties with them, for which I am unbelievably grateful!

I am excited about where God is going to take me with Arbonne, the opportunity I’m going to have to talk to people I may not have talked to before, and the chance to be with my baby boy as he grows up (hopefully not too fast!)