Oh boy, has it been a year. Never before have I felt so small, so ineffective, so unheard, so TIRED. This year has been one uphill battle after another, many of which I lost.
I think I tried to pray through most of it, to trust that my God, ya know.. the God of Abraham, Isaac, and Jacob… was also the God of this year, of these people, of me. That even in the worst moments, He was working. And I just had to be still, trust, and ask to be a part of the work He was already doing (with or without me).
So OH BOY. Guys, that is so hard, so mentally and physically draining. So many times of wanting to leave before my portion of the work was complete, wanting to end the race before the finish line, wanting to return to comfort before it was time. Only through His perseverance was it even possible.
I titled this post “a time to rest” because today, in this moment, as I sit in a Starbucks in Los Angeles, that is what I have been given. After every storm, every battle, every war, every season you wish you hadn’t had to do, there is a moment to catch your breath. A moment, however long or brief, to reflect, to gain perspective, to rest. This moment for me is a beautiful week with a forever friend to recharge, and OH BOY am I grateful (and totally overusing the “oh boy” phrase, yes?)
I’ve been reading in the Old Testament lately with all of the laws and rules for living as God’s chosen people. One of the biggest things that stands out to me is that many of these laws and rules actually serve a practical purpose, like if you touch dead people than you are unclean and need to go through a process to be clean again (cause germs people!). He also makes clear that we are to observe a sabbath. A time of REST!! Because nobody can keep going and going and going without some time to BREATHE. Thank you Lord for knowing how much we need rest, so much that you made it a law.
In the New Testament Jesus himself took time to rest. To step away from the crowds. At one point He even rested in the middle of the storm.
So, dear friend, I think my point in writing this was that after seasons of discomfort or difficulty, Praise God for rest and fully enjoy it. He knows what we need and when, all we need to do is be still, listen, and when the time comes REST.